I’m gonna stop asking if “God wants me to” go to Haiti. I keep questioning because I’m not having any money coming in so I’m associating that with God not wanting me to go.
But really it’s not a moral issue, so if I want to go, then it isn’t wrong for me to go. It wouldn’t be some sort of evil if I were to try and go without asking God’s permission. I have asked and I didn’t hear an answer and I don’t think I need to wait.
So I’m just gonna do it. If I was wrong, then I was wrong. If God wants to try and stop me then fine, but I’m not going to hold back because I’m waiting for what God wants me to do or not.
He said in the bible to love orphans and help the needy. So there’s my answer already.
I think God is teaching me to become independent even from him. Not that I don’t depend on him, or need him every day, but that I have freewill and I can make a choice without him directing my every move. I used to always hold myself back and wait and wait for an answer to everything and then blame myself when something goes south that I wasn’t listening hard enough. But no. If it is not an issue of right or wrong, if I know my morals then I think I can do what I want.
I was doing an interview once, and this guy goes, “So you must be pretty psyched about all this ‘Slumdog Millionaire’ stuff?”
And I was like, “Um, yeah, I am.” I have no idea why though. I had nothing to do with that movie. It’s just some people that kind of look like me are in this movie that everyone loves, and winning Oscars and stuff.
And then I was like, “Whoa, whoa, whoa. Are white people just psyched all the time?” It’s, like, “‘Back to the Future’! That’s us! ‘Godfather’! That’s us! ‘Godfather Part II’! That’s us! ‘Departed’! That’s us! ‘Sunset Boulevard’! That’s us! ‘Citizen Kane’! That’s us! ‘Jaws’! That’s us! Every fucking movie but ‘Slumdog Millionaire’ and ‘Boyz n the Hood’ is us! We are white people! Suck our dicks!”
”—Aziz Ansari, “Are White People Psyched All The Time?” (via loveyourchaos)